cuppa_q | Bond

Taking a break from picking apart the computers in the Lab, Q was currently home alone- Bored. Bored was never a good thing for the boffin to be, it tended to get him in trouble, and he was currently making a mess in the bedroom, clothes all over the floor from where he'd been digging in the closet for the few tools he'd scavenged over the past few months. Between the piles of clothes were several deconstructed phones he'd found on the beach, all in various states of disrepair. ...And, of course, right in the center of the chaos sat Q himself.

He knew Bond wouldn't be impressed by the mess (Harry seemed less likely to mind), but that, on some level, was part of what he was up to. He was bored and irritating Bond was one way to entertain himself.

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"Enjoy might not be the right word," Q admitted. "It's a bit more complex than that. I don't enjoy the pain, but it does trigger something in me I don't otherwise know how to reach. It's euphoric, and devastating, but- I want it. I gain something from the misery of it."

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"Hmm," he replied thoughtfully. "And you don't have that release here? Not even from the nurse?" he asked.

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"Hex and I only ever spoke of our common interests, nothing ever came of it. Even if something had though, I don't think I'd be comfortable sharing that with him now that Harry and yourself have become such a large part of my life. I'd prefer to limit my intimacy to you and him alone," Q said honestly.

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"Is it something you would ask of either of us?" Bond asked, pausing a moment before adding, "I could do that."

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"I wouldn't do that to you or Harry," Q said calmly. "Perhaps some slightly watered down version, but not that."

He paused then and exhaled a sigh. "I'm certain you could do it- Perhaps better than any partner I've had before. ...I like how untainted things are for us though, James. I feel safe with you- The men in my past, it was never safe or loving, not really. It was a deeply twisted pantomime of what sadomasochism should be in that sort of relationship. It was just people looking to harm and be harmed- No care, no love. Just..."

Q fell silent when he was certain he heard someone walk by, then waited to be sure they were alone still before speaking again.

"I roamed very far from being taken over a lover's knee, and I'm not sure I'll get the same high if I try and go back to what would be classified as safe and sane."

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Bond wondered what would prompt Q to do something like that. What the appeal was. A high, surely, but at what cost? He could see the weight of this secret, the way Q held his body and how he spoke in hushed tones. He was actually a bit flattered that Q clearly trusted him enough to confide in him.

He reached over and laid his hand on Q's arm.

"I want you to always feel safe," he said, pushing for no more information.

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Q seemed startled by the touch, as though he expected Bond to be repulsed.

"Thank you," he said softly. "That means a lot to me, James."

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Surely Q knew how Bond reacted when the boffin called him James. It was magic, his name, and spilling from Q's lips it had a power over him like nothing else. Bond melted a little inside and leaned in to kiss him.

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Returning the kiss, Q did his best to seem at ease again- Not the tense little mess he'd been a moment ago.

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Bond broke the kiss first, but only so he could press his forehead against Q's. A small, intimate gesture, then he pulled back and looked Q in the eye.

"I think maybe a trip to the pirate ship is a bit more than you ought to take on today," he said.

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"Perhaps," Q agreed, watching James for a moment before looking away.

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"But I do think you should get a bit of fresh air and exercise. Let's take the long way home," he said, nodding to the path away from the village.

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"I suppose that would be alright," Q agreed, hesitating a beat before reaching for Bond's hand.

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He held Q's hand tenderly, leading him off toward the cemetery. They could circle back on the beach. It was a good stretch of the legs.

"Is this something that has been weighing on you, Q?" he asked. "The lack of...services here?"

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"A bit, though only recently," Q admitted. "It struck me recently."

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"Why is that, do you think?" he asked. He was deeply fascinated to learn this about Q. Perhaps it was a sign of growth. He'd never cared to know anyone on a deeper level, but he found he wanted to know every single detail about Q.

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"I'm content. The want is always worse when I'm content," Q said plainly.

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Bond huffed a soft laugh and gave Q's hand a squeeze.

"Being content is a curse. I'm dying for a mission. Any mission. To run. Fight. Shoot. Do something of meaning. I think I understand your frustration," he said.

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Q nodded, leaning into him slightly as they walked. For a moment he was content to just be near Bond. Perhaps it would distract his body from what it seemed so hung up on.

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"There are very few thrills here. I imagine that's why I venture to the ship. There's an island, too...that direction. I've not ventured there, though. I thought it best to not go alone," he told Q.

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"Possibly not," Q agreed, frowning slightly and then glancing over. "That might be something better suited to a group. We've no idea what might be out there."

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"I'd be all for organizing a group," he replied. "Perhaps I should put a note on the refrigerator and try to gather a few people."

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"Mmm, I do think there are others who'd be interested in venturing out. If not though, perhaps Harry and I could simply join you," Q suggested.

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"Hmm...it's worth considering," he said. The path lead them into the graveyard. It was a quiet place, and overgrown. The headstones stood, some erratically.